I am feeling that awful mothers guilt so much this morning!!! Let me start off by saying we got up late...never a good start! My Mitchell who has always been right on top of things for example~ room perfect, closet perfect, homework perfect, on and on perfect...you get the picture. Well, he has been so forgetful lately, loosing things, telling me he needs something the day he needs it on the way to school, (AAARRRGGGH!!!) asking me to sign things in the school line (AAARRGGH!!!) again, you get the picture. This is so not like him, and I am getting so frustrated. This morning I was a little to hard on him, because on the way to school he told be right before we got in the drop off line that he had lost the calculator that the teacher gives them and he needed to pay 12$ today(AARRGGH!) I was so aggravated No.1 that he lost the loaner one and No. 2 that he was just telling me when we were in the drop off line that he needed a check. I said, (with a slightly raised voice) "Mitchell does it look like I can just write a check while I am driving, you are going to have to keep up with things better and start telling me things in advance"!!! Needless to say, Meredith wrote the check fast and I signed. As the kids got out of the van and I told them that I loved them and to have a good day Mitchell would not look at me. My heart broke! I pulled over immediately and got him off the side walk. I just had to hug him and tell him that I love him no matter what, but that I was just frustrated with his forgetfulness and his not being more responsible. I was not as patient as I should have been. I just reacted to quickly without thinking about it first, I need to remember that I too lose things and forget ALL THE TIME! I hope he is having a good day and that he know that he is one of the reasons my world goes round!!!
Mothers guilt is awful!!!
3 comments:
I really appreciate this post. I far too often forget that I forget things, lose things, and am not organized like I expect them to be... then get upset and impatient when they do the same. Being a mom can be so challenging!! On a higher level - being a wife can also be challenging! Ü Thank goodness for a forgiving husband and children who look beyond my imperfections! I need to be better at looking beyond theirs. Thanks for the sweet reminder!
Oh Heather, my eyes started to well up as I was reading because I too could relate to this situation. Well, except for the child normally doing everything perfect, (lucky dawwg) I am so touched that you pulled over to go out and hug him and let him know! That is a memory builder for me and a love builder for you. I am the most forgetful procrastinator around.
Now I have mother's guilt because I wouldn't have gotten out of the car....I would have let him be miserable all day. I'm such a mean mommy!
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